There was times in my life that I couldn’t hear myself. I couldn’t hear what I was really thinking. The chatter in my head was extremely loud and unorganised. When I realised that and I took decided to listen to what I was thinking. It was an eye opener! Oh boy that my non-sense thinking was burying the insights!
The first steps of acknowledging that’s what was happening, it help me reduced the noise significantly. I noted what I was saying and when. I analysed the relationship between the thoughts and what was going on in my life and I discovered direct connection to the low and high moments. This chatter was pretty distracting or should I say not helping me focus on what is the most important: being here and now with an overview of the future.
There was one problem though, quieting my mind was never my forte. I practice meditaiont but it is not always working. I needed something more effective. If my thoughts are affecting how I feel, how can change them when I suck at quieting my mind?
One day it dawn on me, I cannot change my thoughts, there will be always thoughts. What I can do is choose them:
- What if I let them be thoughts and not give importance to the ones I don’t like?
- What if I let them free and only let the ones that I like stick?
Like my great friend Caroline would say:
“Listen with nothing on your mind”
Not giving importance to the thoughts I didn’t like, I can hear “Me”. I hear the insights that helps me in various spheres of my life. Don’t get me wrong, the chatter is still there but I am better at recognising it. It does not take me a long time to let the thoughts free so I can get back to a more peaceful mind with insightful thoughts.